Loop

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My head is throbbing like anything. I don't know what it is. I'm not even trying to know. I'm too busy to think about this headache. I'm supposed to complete this task before tomorrow 10 Am. But I'm not sure whether I will be able to do or not? What's the point of doing this? It's not bringing me happiness. 

When will I ever get the peace in this house? I'm tired of this constant strife, this dispute which has given me nothing but hatred. And I'm not so happy with growing hate inside me. I have to leave it immediately. But how can I? 

'Stop! Focus on your work. Just finish this task before the dusk and then you'll not have to sacrifice your sleep.', I said to myself. The most difficult task is to bring thoughts in alignment. 

Children are having fun these days. Just take your bicycle and go for a ride. I wonder do they ever miss their school or mates? Obviously they do. How couldn't they? One of them is singing a famous Punjabi song of nowadays in his thick pahadi accent, lyrics are wrong too. It makes me laugh like anything, as if I'm Lata Mangeshkar. I'm no better than that kid. Only difference is he is singing with his whole heart, while I'll think before singing this much loud. 

I have completely lost my focus and I might miss my deadline. But I'm glad atleast all of this has relived me from headache. As far as my sleep is concerned, whether I have work or not, I'll lose it any way. 


 

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