Dear Aman [2]

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 Dear Aman,

I'm writing to you and it's again 3 in the morning or the night. Aman, did you pick up your paintbrushes last night? Why? Because it snowed here. I witnessed the snowfall again on this hill. When the people wake up they will again carry on with their day thinking that it won't snow here anymore. It does, but they are mostly not awake. I saw the fox passing by, it stood for a while to look at me but I think I wasn't of any interest to it. It is always late at night when one sees miracles of nature. Well, when it comes to me I'm always outdoors, you know it right?

A house, bamboo, and tea garden in front of that orphaned house. Do you still live there? Why do we have so much attachment to things, places or people? Look at me, so far away, still thinking about you. I tried to detangle the bunch of rice lights but in vain. There's a knock at the door, maybe from a friend. He will change the date of the calendar and then will move to the kitchen. I know of his movement so well. We become so habitual of people, that their habits come to us eventually we become them. When they leave we feel like we saw a dream, like a trance has been broken.

Aman, you used to laugh about life, in those little eyes there was a glimmer of hope. Sometimes your laughter falls in my ears out of nowhere. Every word, every action had a meaning, I wish I had known it earlier. They told me to stop thinking about you as if I hadn't tried that. Funny! We look for love everywhere, but it is always there within us. We look for answers everywhere, they are within us, the moment we find those our questions change, and our lives change.

I’m watching the smoke rising from the other room, I think it is a sign for me to stop writing. I know it's an abrupt way to end the letter, but doesn't life change abruptly, friendships break, and people leave abruptly? Yeah! There is a charm in abruption. Like we cherish the moments we spent together forever and still yearn for them. Yearning! Celebrated by poets and romantics. As you are a romantic and for the love of romantics…

With Love

Yours 

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